anger management

you know, on the other day, someone i know, asked me- " how the hell, did you manage to get a job? that too at !@@$( it's a company, but i dont have time for lawsuits and suits of any kind)...
some guys have all the luck..."

well, you know, Mr. unnamed friend, you really pissed me off.. so, i wanted to get back at you.. but if there's one thing that i have realised, over the 22 years that i have spent on terra firma(well grounded childhood helps), it's that good revenge is like a meal.. the longer you take to prepare, the better it tastes...

so, i let my anger simmer in me, and then, decided, to mash it all in, and heat in the oil of indignance, and generously sprinkle it, with loads of abuse...

imagine my surprise, when, upon opening the larder of imagination, i found it to be utterly empty... like a locust had held a party and had left only emptiness behind...

" this just wont do", i promised myself... " i am capable of venomous spite, wont give in, without a fight!!"...

so, i started to look for a reason to be angry with the world again... i tried to develop a short temper... i snapped at all those people, whom i knew... i pulled strings, which i knew, would lead supporting structures to collapse..

but nothing worked out... even the pup, whom i growled at, laughed and continued wagging it's tail... i could almost hear it say- " ok two legged funny thing... you got a very high voice, can we get on with the playing please?"

it's disappointing to know, that one of the fundamental rights are being taken away from me... the right to anger..

imagine if there was no anger.... no angry young man, no angry middle aged young man, no angry old man, no angry T Rex, no angry politician( in same order)....

so, i am demanding my right, to be recognised as a human being, capable of anger, and demand that i be treated with avoidance and anger , in return..

it's the democratic thing to do..

an idle mind and other such things

well, i like to write good night rhymes once in a while.. and pester me friends to read them. so, here's a sample of the inane stuff they have to put up with... and i swear that these are 100 % original....

and much thanks to hema, for collecting them and sending them to me.. u rock :)

12/1/2006

Let the stars twinkle tonight,
when they gaze upon your sleeping face.
Good night :-)

13/1/2006

Let your mind set at rest,
The world of dreams is the best.
free of trouble,worry and fights,
sleep well and early,have a good night!

14/1/2006

The sky is ready,lovely blanket.
Winds are ready,soothing feather.
Nightingale ready to serenade.
As u make your sleep,in your bed.

15/1/2006

Fret not on what could have been,
focus insteadon what can be.
Happiness you should keep,
as the innocent make their way to sleep.

16/1/2006

Bid adieu to the day of light.
Hate and anger,sorrow and fright.
Laughter,joy,unlimited delight..
await the one who sleeps tonight.

17/1/2006

i walkin the clouds,float in the air.
Divein the seas,frollic in the fair.
Of so much happiness do i partake.
must i wake? oh! must i wake!

18/1/2006

I am a car running on empty,
A weary traveller looking for respite.
The oasis of dreams lie in my sight,
I trudge on,hoping to reach it tonight.

24/1/2006

I have sunk like the titanic, in my lake of sorrow.
Grief of today, can't face tomorrow.
No one from whom, glee i could borrow.
my heart lies stabbed, on the mark of an arrow.

25/1/2006

Oh what a tangled web we weave.
Only in end to us decieve.
time does not heal,te ones who grieve.
pain and suffering is all they recieve.


27/1/2006

The smell of floowers, warmth of the sun.
A cheerful smile, mark summer's return.
Time for many tales to unfold,
eternal beauty - a joy to behold.

28/1/2006

Even on the darkest night,
when nothing lies in sight.
i look to my heart,
it guides me right.
my memories remain my greatest might.
forever burning, ever bright.

29/1/2006

I wear an armor, of the thickest hide.
Alone in battle, enemies i smite.
yet slowly i bleed my way to death.
The rose over my heart, thorn in the flesh...

30/1/2006

Tired bones,weary sighs, feel that drag all while.
sad times, happy climes, make you glad to be alive.
with that thought, hope you sink in bed so deep,
that the prying hands of the world,won't snatch you from your sleep..

31/1/2006

I have missed it the whole day, won't miss it at night.
The face i search for, burn into my sight.
The face that makes me hate, being all alone.
The face that has made my heart,it's own.

02/02/2006

Why hath man wrought his blight?
Why kill children,destroy life?
plague the lands, endlessly consume.
erect all buildings,can't see the moon.

04/02/2006

The tallest trees starts as a seed.
Earth can move with smallest deed.
One thing satys through hell and after.
Ties of blood run thicker then water.

05/02/2006

A heart is fragile, yet we load it with worries.
The mind isn,t agile, to play out our stories.
flesh and bone we are,be happy instead.
a night's rest lies ahead.

06/02/2006

courage lies in the heart, not the might o arms.
Wisdom is eternal, not bodily charm.
conscience is the father of the soul.
Keep these in mind, as you reach your goal.

07/02/2006

With the passing of day,and onset of night.
The best days of life are taking flight.
i laugh while others despair.
vanity shall never me ensnare.

08/02/2006

The oldest wine tastes divine.
Oldest tree has the toughest spine.
ages makes one frail, but also wise.
Savour each day, life's spice.

rest will follow

zen and the art of illusion

while watchin the Da Vinci Code, in theater( not in india, but UAE), i was struck by something.. how, all of us lead lives, in blind acceptance of illusions that are all around us.. we prefer to sit in the cushion of delibrate ignorance, than face the GROUND realities, so as to speak...

even the most fundamental questions remain unanswered, yet, we choose to go on, without a pause, for the fear that questioning would halt us in our tracks...

for example, the greatest lie foistered on us, is that democracy empowers the masses.. look around you, honestly, and see if that is so.. all we have managed to do, in the absence of monarchy, is replace a nobility of blood, with a nobility of wealth... the aristrocrats of yesteryears, have been replaced with the ministers and industrialists of today..

the only thing that remains the same, is the fate of the destitute... the world over, if you are born poor, then, 90 % of the time, you die poor... the shackles of fate ensnare people so tightly, that making our own destiny remains a dream that few are able to make real...

and, the last few months have shown us, how our so called economic progress was just a lot of optimistic gung ho... all it took was the sensex to dive by 3000 points, and all of a sudden, hitherto unnoticed ' Fundamental Flaws' were discovered in our economic, which were the cause of ' Market Correction'.. now, place this talk of so called progress of last few years, with your life... while your average salary has only grown up by a notch or two, prices have been rising faster than Mallika Sherawat's hemline..

while any man on the streets would have told you, that in 5 years time, a 10 Rs. note would buy you lesser quantities of anything, our ministers were going to town with tales of our prosperity... unfortunately, that's all that they remain.. mere tales...

there are several instances, i am sure, in your life as well, where, you realise all of a sudden that even the most fundamental assumptions of your, were flawed... that can either shatter your morale, or, you can grin and then try to move on, while making place for corrections...

my aim, here, is not to ramble on and on.. so, will cut short...

whither art thou, democracy?

we are a democracy of a billion people. and pride ourselves on that fact. it's a cornerstone of a billion people's lives when they wake up in the morning.
in fact, it's a boasting point when we meet our neighbours(rare as that may be). but after 60 years of democracy, what we have been left with, is pretty much the same problems since independance.
poverty, uneducation, famine, floods, corruption are still with us. while development occurs with 33 % of the population, it happens at the expense of the 15 % of the populace, below poverty line.
what have been the major achievements since 1947?
we brought about a reservation system, ostensibly, to undo the damage caused by centuries of malpractices where birth was awarded more than ability. however, in the end result, what has happened is the opposite. more than ever now, if u wish to get into the elite colleges, despite having scored a modest 75 %, you had better be one of the oppressed people.
this takes place right from school, to college, to now, even jobs( if certain political parties had their way).
secondly, in a democracy, where any one has the right to stand up in an election, we have the absurd demand for 33% reservation for women, is this an acknowledgement by them, that they are unable to fight against the men, who subjugate them? is not the ballot more powerful than the gun? yet, politicans never lose an oppurtunity to pose for photos with women MPs and then proceed to hinder the progress of the bill.
thirdly, is it just me, or is there a visible lack of participation from the educated middle class in politics? all i see are a few good people, amongst a sea of rogues( harsh words, but true nevertheless). unless politics are cleansed of the dirt accumulated over the years, i don't see a change happening anytime soon.
our country need less of the raja bhaiyyas, and more of APJ and Manmohan singh. will that ever occur though?